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Daphne Carr's SL Blog
18 October 2017 @ 09:03 pm
Um.. greeting, hi, hello, and whazzup!!!!

Ok, enough sillyness, Hi there, scary udate time. Ok. so maybe, it's not quite that scary. It seems, um, I have been 'saved' from my insanely dangerous impulses, boring right? ER, um, no, not exactly. I really was kind of rescued from a scary situation, kind of a frighteningly real kidnapping/permanent lock down situation. Almost similar to the *gulp* Valock episode, perhaps not that sadistic, well, let's just say, 'a different flavor' but just as real, forcing me to beg for some real help from a dear friend, platonic, but cute none the less. And, well, letting myself being willingly kidnapped/rescued and locked down safely, collared, restrained and *gulp* yes owned.

Ok, Ok, I know what you are saying, Daphne?? Owned!?! *sigh* yes, locked away, helpless, but safe with a trusting Master who really does have my well being at heart. This is different, and feels like my very first Master, dear Bebeido who taught me so much, and cared and frankly loved me, and me him. Yes Owned... taken off the market, locked down strictly and completely.. no chance of rescue or being stolen away. It seems most Masters/Mistresses honor this complete ownership, not poaching other slaves/subs. I pray this is true.

But a funny thing happened to Daphne on the way to her rescue/kidnapping. My true inner sub is blossoming. Yeah right you say, No! Honest! It is freeing, releasing.. and um.. different.

So.. my run and escape to safety, into the waiting arms of a thoughtful, temporary Master has, well, changed me. Ok, so the excitement of dancing on the edge of oblivion is great fun, but frankly, it is dangerous! No matter how thrilling!

*sigh*

This is really all my fault, playing so close to the edge, and having to deal with the consequences. I understand that, and it took something this serious to bonk me on the head and bring me to my senses.

He cares for me, but I am imposing on him and his chosen slave girl, while I'm the visiting 'Pet". I feel bad about this, but, um, I kind of needed help for a bit, and um.... giving up a few months of um 'extra-curricular' activity might have done me good. This Master is a one slave master, and I would die if I broke up their relationship, so.....

1. Learn to be a good sub

2. Realize my dangerous tendencies and learn to control them

3. Timid searches for a new Master

4. Try not to end up locked up so damn tight, I never get free.

Seems simple enough, right? *gulp*.. um... well, being a sub is so darn hard!!!


More later... I'm off to bed

Hugs!!
 
 
Daphne Carr's SL Blog
21 July 2017 @ 03:03 pm
So.. I still seem to be captive, and well, feeling more and more subby. G-Great! *sigh* why does this do this to me? Helplessness breeding even more helplessness? I think I'm a fairly strong and independent person, knowing my likes and dislikes, but well, I find myself falling into this helpless trap, just wanting to please, obey, craving for a nod of appreciation for a job well done, be it kneeling correctly or jumping up instantly to fulfill a minor wish. It's crazy right? Don't answer that!

Ok....so, am I then turning into a slave? I tend to feel slave don't have self-direction and are, well, frankly boring, to themselves and the people owning them. "Do This!!" "Y-Yes, of course, Immediately!" followed by perfect obedience. I suppose some people like that, but again, its a kind of cookie-cutter situation, with very routine expectations.....dull. Well, dull except the horrible physical and mental tortures a slave girl must endure.

I wonder, if that's why I make mistakes. Not on purpose, I'm not that kind of mean girl/brat type, honest. But, when I'm told to complete a task, I find the more difficult and/or important it is, or more emphasis it is given, (say by yelling or a whip perhaps, *Gulp*), I over think, and over react, making mistakes, which can cause even more punishments! These are usually bad, but, *blush*, that frozen moment of panic that ices into your heart, knowing you are doing something wrong, and plus knowing that you really are trying your best, but it looks like you are purposefully being disobedient, it um.. adds a certain tingle of helplessness and yes, pleasure. Even now, chatting about this, my fingers are tingling! I want to scream, Honest! I would even imagine trying to disobey you in a million years! But, in that moment, you can see yourself in their eyes, just a bad slave or sub, needing more corrective measures, more training. Ok, wow. I have been in that spot quite a few times, and except for the panic attack.. it was well, interesting and fun.

Ok, yeah yeah, I'm weird....But you already knew that!

So, to summarize, one, I'm becoming a slave, two, I will probably never be boring one, because the more I try, the more I'll make mistakes, panicking me, which will add more error..and..ok...
and, three

I'm weird.

There! I'm so glad we got that off my chest!

*insert official eye roll here...*

Hugs!

Daphne!!
 
 
Current Mood: optimisticoptimistic
 
 
Daphne Carr's SL Blog
16 July 2017 @ 03:07 pm

I know, these last few entries have me quite introspective.   Believe me, I have had a great deal of time to navel-gaze lately.  So, um... about helplessness.   Giving up freedom and trusting someone to well, do anything they wish, Can, I suppose change how you feel about your situation and enjoyment there within.  

Ok... this started out confusing, here, this might help.  Let me restart a second, and back up a bunch.  I was asked once whether I was a sub or a slave.  Sub, I thought, and here is why I felt that.  I found a few definitions which helped me define my experiences in SL.

I cheated and cut/pasted them because, well, I really didn't want to get this wrong.

 So what is the difference between a submissive and a slave?

  • A submissive is someone who negotiates; a slave does not
  • A submissive has limits; a slave has given up all limits except those which his/her owner sets for them.
  • A submissive obeys and serves by choosing to do so each time and retains her will. A slave initially makes a choice to obey his/her master/mistress at all times and then submits to the will of  his/her master at all times.
  • A submissive accepts submission, while a slave accepts obedience.
  • A submissive has retained some rights within the context of the D/s relationship, whereas a slave has given up all rights and becomes, in effect, property.
  • A submissive is owned, but a slave is possessed.
  • A slave is not allowed to sit on furniture or wear clothes, and always kneels at his/her owner’s feet.
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Daphne Carr's SL Blog
14 July 2017 @ 06:55 am
Ok, yeah i know, strange title, right? Believe me, i know how you feel. As of this sec. in SL, I'm kneeling in chains, in a extremely simple slave shift, cuffed and locked to the max, with my keys perhaps unreachable for weeks, or, *Gulp! * longer!

Yeah, yeah, right, this has happened before, why stress? Well, its one thing to rp with a new aquantince, its another to surrender to a trusted friend. Meaning, no cheating!

Um, more later, work is calling. Someting tells me i might have a great deal of time on my hands to expand on this...subject.

Worried smile!

Daphne
 
 
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
 
 
 
 
Daphne Carr's SL Blog
30 April 2017 @ 07:00 am
Yes yes... I know I know.. I love helplessness, but, well, this was a bit over the tope and kind of, well frustrating!. So, last you heard, *whinnied?* from me, I was lost and trapped at a ponygirl ranch, locked down completely and was slowly being turned into an *animal*. So.... ok, it was fun, very different, quite helpless and well... probably not for me. I like to talk! Yeah, go figure, right? So, as a 'pony', I'm not suppose to talk at all, or even think like a girl, which frankly is a bit difficult, lol. I just enjoy my bondage, preform tricks and prance, learn patterns and the whip commands, etc. I'm quite terrible at those, by the way, but the hard part is trying to just me a loving animal, loosing all expression, even emoting.

Sigh, well, this is the second time I have dove into this area, and the second time I failed. I'll think about trying one more time... maybe. Oh, and one more important thing? Doms and Dommes out there? Please try very hard to keep rules standardized, um, ok? P-Please? I literally had three different 'trainers' locking (gulp! Very securely!) various um, restraints on me, some with no touch allowed, some with leashes attached, all either owned my them or the group I belonged to. Very Frustrating!!! At least give us the chance to try to comply and learn without being really trapped in some other trainers restraint lockdown!!!

Ok.. rant completed. S-sorry

I did kind of look cute though!
ok, ok... here:

Oh.. and it's fun and terrifying to be threatened to be stolen to off the sim to be a personal ponygirl, but please, don't really do that!! OMG, official panic attack! Remember? the whole point of RLV is we really can't get out of this stuff without help, and.. um....so, just saying!

My next post will be about my new mesh body!!

More updates soon!!!



Hugs and kissess!!!!
 
 
Daphne Carr's SL Blog
17 October 2016 @ 03:41 pm
Well....Hmm, how to start again. Ok, first... I was owned by a lovely friendly Master, for quite a while, He let me roam and play, plus we discussed silly daydreams, but no actually, well, tie-up games in SL, which is kind of why I, well, joined SL. I'm not quite sure we meshed well, except for talking fantasies in RL, so, goodness I just well felt guilty about popping online and saying hello, then, playing in short-term capture roleplay places. *Sigh* So with a bit of tearfulness, we agreed to separate, which went well actually. I have been playing in those lately, plus using Sin-Tracker, which believe me is seriously hit or miss.

I have gone completely into RLV.. meaning, if someone locks me, I'm stuck until they unlock me, no cheating. It's fun, exciting and absolutely terrifying, and hopefully, closer to RL. Don't get me wrong, I'm not about to actually run out and get kidnapped or anything. But it's fun to daydream, it's like my sexy romance novel indulgence, ok? So sue me! Goodness!

Anyways...back to SL.... I'm kind of a pony at the moment. *Sigh*, yes, I locked down, leather straps, *gulps*, everywhere!..horrible gag/head harness, locking hoof boots and a very frightening lump in my throat. People here are like serious, no really, permanent welded shut nipple rings and, er, o-other rings in delicate places, (No really I saw it done!, Almost fainted! Ewww!)

So... I'm giving this, like 1 week to try and learn if this is for me, the bondage is intense, Extremely helpless, but the degrading, I'm only an animal, can't talk, only whinny stuff...

I have to see

Hugs!!
hopefully another update coming sooner than that last one!

Daphne
 
 
Daphne Carr's SL Blog
Ok...Stop Judging Me! I'm Free, Better, Happy, And GlaD I Tried One Last Time, We Are Not Compatable, But I Still Care For Him. I Know I Know, "Lets Just Be Friends". But Its True.

More Later!
 
 
Daphne Carr's SL Blog
23 April 2013 @ 09:23 am
I'm Better, And Happy And Nearly BacK Norma! More Later. Hugs!