"Super Model!"

Yeah, right, ok, so um, I have been slowly updating and tweaking my avi (Not Twirking!! OMG! haha), and think I have it pretty close to finished. I had Master take a pic and well, here "I" am:



Ok.. so, it did turn out ok, and I had to ask how much he re-touched it, but it was so fast, he couldn't have, so, well, um, that 'me'.

Daphne Carr aka, Super Model!

Ok, so no, I'm not, I'm too short, and still wear glasses, (poking things in my eyes i.e.contacts phobia in RL), but well. I guess I look ok, and haha kidnappable.

Anyways, I'm off to explore and maybe even leave my keys available along with Sin Tracker.

Catch me later??

Haha

Master would kill me, but well, I'm bored! Being good does have it's perks, but excitement isn't one of them.

Cya and have fun!

Dumb old me, D.

*Waves!*

Haha, hello there.  I had to post today, hoping and praying this year might be slightly better than the last one, but frankly, if we just have one wave of locusts, it  should be a step up!  Here I am, in my tiny little cottage, SL home away from RL home, lounging and being good for once!










So, yes, I'm still owned, yes I have a collar locked about my throat by a cute, loving and slightly suffocating Master, who worried just how much trouble I will get into day to day.  Ok, so, I'm really not quite that 'kidnappable' prone, I think, but, well, ok, there are a few, um, ex-Doms would would love to have me on their leash!


Ex-Doms. There is an interesting concept.


 *thinks  pensively to herself*










Guys, and girls for that matter, who are not strictly compatible with me, or my, um, level of comfort, well discomfort actually, of impossible helpless bondage tend to prey upon this little sub.  Some of them can sense my thrill and/or terrorized panic, or both and feed upon it.  Sadist I believe is the proper term, people who can feel how much I love being helpless, feed on it, and ignore my pleas and just increase their efforts.  This makes me more frightened and excited and *blush* whatever, and well. usually peaks at a sane point.










*Smiles* 


That is if the person binding me realizes they are playing with an actual person, a frightened girl, and maybe they should back off. Sigh, and maybe I should try to explain the situation, plead and cry and beg and try to get the point of my situation across?  In the heat of the moment?   Me??


As the youngsters say, "You B cray cray!"


So maybe having someone protecting me from others is actually protecting me from myself?


There is a lovely thought!


Thank you M.










*Smiles* 


Funny, I don't look that crazy....er, mostly.


But, 


Maybe, just slightly ......


Kidnappable! 




Haha... See you in SecondLife!


p.s. and yes I promise I'm being more careful!

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Part three update, um... bondage/slave/sub/pet stuff.


Hi again!

Well, this update might be a bit interesting, and *blush*, "R" rated, at least!

So, I've talked about bondage, and being a slave and/or sub, endlessly I think.  Currently, I'm classified as a, um, 'pet, completely and safely owned, and actually quite permanently also.  My Master is not giving me away, really for anything.  It seems I am special, adorable, incorrigible, a terrible tease, sweet thoughtful and loyal.  I'm officially rolling my eyes as I type this, I'm just plain old me, haha.

Now, a 'pet" denotes something special. I am collared, and protected, under my Masters complete and devoted direction, and, *gulp* subject to his strict guidance and rules.  Ah, but a pet, doesn't have well, conjugal visits, at least this one doesn't. (I know, a bit different, a Master who only takes advantage of one and only one slave girl).  My Master owns a lovely Lady and me, and she in turn owns me. They have taken me under their protective wings.  Hence the extreme care I am suppose to take when I am allowed to RP with others.

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The Total Mesh 'Me"!!


So, as promised.. this is the now Mesh Me!  I't diferent, but I have a great deal of nice comments, like: "You look like a HiDef Daphne now!"  and "I love it", and "I'm going to keep you forever, great!"


Gulp!!!

So, the details.

I had a ton of help, and was, encouraged to um, go full mesh, head included because, "My slaves must meet a certain level of non-newbie-ness".  Ok, so maybe this was not a direct quote, but it kind of compasses the feelings behind the, er, command.  Plus, well, when you are on a leash, and told, they are buying this for you, wear it, you are kind of placed in a spot.  I'm not the type to be rude, although, I had a limit placed withing my profile"

          I have had this avatar for quite some time, and have grown quite fond of it, considering it a second 'Me",  I would rather not have it mutilated or altered, including my hair, face or freckles. *g*

 Could we consider this a hard limit?

*Sigh*, this didn't help, I was forced to change, under the guise of the RP, and well, I think I like , um, me now.  I have never been a gold-digger, and frankly, feel uncomfortable accepting gifts. I like buying and paying for my own things, I mean, that's me, Daphne, the admitted shopaholic!

Ok, OK, so, 

I use now a Maitreya Lara body V4.1, shape #4, Bento hands, with LAQ — Emma 06 (Fair) Glow skin and (PXL) Freckles HUD — FAIR TONES .

Now the head... um, 

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Er.... Hi there, Long time no see?

Hello! Yes it's me, and no I didn't perish in SL's endless lost sims. Reports of my demise were Greatly over-exaggerated, haha. I know it's been a while since my last update, yes, everything is fine, Yes, I'm still owned completely and totally. *Shows off her collar, cute, locked tight and quite impossible to get off without help* It's a "Heartcore" collar, very secure and very intense, and it has a *gulp*, 'weld' feature????? Who k-knew! Um, word to the wise, and blindingly innocent also, Ask what type of collar you are willing to accept about your dainty slim throat. Just an FYI, not that I'm opposed to that, but welding a frightenly permanent steel collar about one's neck... is, well... intense to say the least! Thank goodness my Master is honest, perfect understanding and truly cares for me!

I have a tiny cute little cottage to call my own. It's kind of nice to have a safe spot to change and wind down after being chained hand and foot, haha. It's has a huge deck, comfy livingroom, adorable little breakfast nook for English tea, bedroom, and of all things, a tree house!. Here are some pics


The TreeHouse:


The Cottage:


Living Room:


And, Bedroom!, Nothing interesting ever happens here!


So, It's wonderful having a nice safe place to decompress after a exciting day of being chained hand and foot! Haha, just joking, sort of *wink*

Another thing... I have a new Avi!! Completely mesh, and quite a step to integrate with 'me. Cloth inventory changes, hair style, trying to make sure my freckles are still there, plus emotions and my cute nose (just joking!!!).


I'll show you my next update...and no, not in another 2 yrs!

Here is a quick peek:



Hugs!! See you soon!!!

Daphne Carr

Change!

Um.. greeting, hi, hello, and whazzup!!!!

Ok, enough sillyness, Hi there, scary udate time. Ok. so maybe, it's not quite that scary. It seems, um, I have been 'saved' from my insanely dangerous impulses, boring right? ER, um, no, not exactly. I really was kind of rescued from a scary situation, kind of a frighteningly real kidnapping/permanent lock down situation. Almost similar to the *gulp* Valock episode, perhaps not that sadistic, well, let's just say, 'a different flavor' but just as real, forcing me to beg for some real help from a dear friend, platonic, but cute none the less. And, well, letting myself being willingly kidnapped/rescued and locked down safely, collared, restrained and *gulp* yes owned.

Ok, Ok, I know what you are saying, Daphne?? Owned!?! *sigh* yes, locked away, helpless, but safe with a trusting Master who really does have my well being at heart. This is different, and feels like my very first Master, dear Bebeido who taught me so much, and cared and frankly loved me, and me him. Yes Owned... taken off the market, locked down strictly and completely.. no chance of rescue or being stolen away. It seems most Masters/Mistresses honor this complete ownership, not poaching other slaves/subs. I pray this is true.

But a funny thing happened to Daphne on the way to her rescue/kidnapping. My true inner sub is blossoming. Yeah right you say, No! Honest! It is freeing, releasing.. and um.. different.

So.. my run and escape to safety, into the waiting arms of a thoughtful, temporary Master has, well, changed me. Ok, so the excitement of dancing on the edge of oblivion is great fun, but frankly, it is dangerous! No matter how thrilling!

*sigh*

This is really all my fault, playing so close to the edge, and having to deal with the consequences. I understand that, and it took something this serious to bonk me on the head and bring me to my senses.

He cares for me, but I am imposing on him and his chosen slave girl, while I'm the visiting 'Pet". I feel bad about this, but, um, I kind of needed help for a bit, and um.... giving up a few months of um 'extra-curricular' activity might have done me good. This Master is a one slave master, and I would die if I broke up their relationship, so.....

1. Learn to be a good sub

2. Realize my dangerous tendencies and learn to control them

3. Timid searches for a new Master

4. Try not to end up locked up so damn tight, I never get free.

Seems simple enough, right? *gulp*.. um... well, being a sub is so darn hard!!!


More later... I'm off to bed

Hugs!!

Better...er, sort of

So.. I still seem to be captive, and well, feeling more and more subby. G-Great! *sigh* why does this do this to me? Helplessness breeding even more helplessness? I think I'm a fairly strong and independent person, knowing my likes and dislikes, but well, I find myself falling into this helpless trap, just wanting to please, obey, craving for a nod of appreciation for a job well done, be it kneeling correctly or jumping up instantly to fulfill a minor wish. It's crazy right? Don't answer that!

Ok....so, am I then turning into a slave? I tend to feel slave don't have self-direction and are, well, frankly boring, to themselves and the people owning them. "Do This!!" "Y-Yes, of course, Immediately!" followed by perfect obedience. I suppose some people like that, but again, its a kind of cookie-cutter situation, with very routine expectations.....dull. Well, dull except the horrible physical and mental tortures a slave girl must endure.

I wonder, if that's why I make mistakes. Not on purpose, I'm not that kind of mean girl/brat type, honest. But, when I'm told to complete a task, I find the more difficult and/or important it is, or more emphasis it is given, (say by yelling or a whip perhaps, *Gulp*), I over think, and over react, making mistakes, which can cause even more punishments! These are usually bad, but, *blush*, that frozen moment of panic that ices into your heart, knowing you are doing something wrong, and plus knowing that you really are trying your best, but it looks like you are purposefully being disobedient, it um.. adds a certain tingle of helplessness and yes, pleasure. Even now, chatting about this, my fingers are tingling! I want to scream, Honest! I would even imagine trying to disobey you in a million years! But, in that moment, you can see yourself in their eyes, just a bad slave or sub, needing more corrective measures, more training. Ok, wow. I have been in that spot quite a few times, and except for the panic attack.. it was well, interesting and fun.

Ok, yeah yeah, I'm weird....But you already knew that!

So, to summarize, one, I'm becoming a slave, two, I will probably never be boring one, because the more I try, the more I'll make mistakes, panicking me, which will add more error..and..ok...
and, three

I'm weird.

There! I'm so glad we got that off my chest!

*insert official eye roll here...*

Hugs!

Daphne!!

Can helplessness change you?

I know, these last few entries have me quite introspective.   Believe me, I have had a great deal of time to navel-gaze lately.  So, um... about helplessness.   Giving up freedom and trusting someone to well, do anything they wish, Can, I suppose change how you feel about your situation and enjoyment there within.  

Ok... this started out confusing, here, this might help.  Let me restart a second, and back up a bunch.  I was asked once whether I was a sub or a slave.  Sub, I thought, and here is why I felt that.  I found a few definitions which helped me define my experiences in SL.

I cheated and cut/pasted them because, well, I really didn't want to get this wrong.

 So what is the difference between a submissive and a slave?

  • A submissive is someone who negotiates; a slave does not
  • A submissive has limits; a slave has given up all limits except those which his/her owner sets for them.
  • A submissive obeys and serves by choosing to do so each time and retains her will. A slave initially makes a choice to obey his/her master/mistress at all times and then submits to the will of  his/her master at all times.
  • A submissive accepts submission, while a slave accepts obedience.
  • A submissive has retained some rights within the context of the D/s relationship, whereas a slave has given up all rights and becomes, in effect, property.
  • A submissive is owned, but a slave is possessed.
  • A slave is not allowed to sit on furniture or wear clothes, and always kneels at his/her owner’s feet.
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Um..hello all, from 'slave land'

Ok, yeah i know, strange title, right? Believe me, i know how you feel. As of this sec. in SL, I'm kneeling in chains, in a extremely simple slave shift, cuffed and locked to the max, with my keys perhaps unreachable for weeks, or, *Gulp! * longer!

Yeah, yeah, right, this has happened before, why stress? Well, its one thing to rp with a new aquantince, its another to surrender to a trusted friend. Meaning, no cheating!

Um, more later, work is calling. Someting tells me i might have a great deal of time on my hands to expand on this...subject.

Worried smile!

Daphne